Date & Dish

I knew with my track record this would happen eventually.  I knew I should have been wary with anything or anyone that appeared perfect.  The problem is that I still don’t know what isn’t perfect about Spencer.

I was cautious about Spencer at first, but before I knew it I realized I really liked him.  I learned that I can’t really date for fun.  I either don’t like them or I fall hard and I’m not talking about the stairs.  I can’t seem to find a middle ground.

You know how you can be on cloud nine after a date with someone you like?  I didn’t get that last Sunday.  We’ve spent enough time together to know that I like him, but not enough for him not to slip away without an explanation.  He doesn’t seem like the kind of guy to disapear, but I’ve always been suprised by the ones that do.

The date Sunday was going along perfectly, and we were walking hand in hand along Highland Ave when he casually mentions that he will be out of town for the next 3 weeks.  Like it was no big deal.  Like he didn’t care.  It sounded to me like the classic “I’m going to be really busy” release line.  I couldn’t believe it. I don’t understand how you go from hot to cold so fast.  I always immediately think of the uncertainty phase in dating, but with me, most guys don’t bounce back.  Maybe I DID read him wrong, and maybe he really will be out of town for three weeks.  When he dropped me off at my apartment, he didn’t walk me to the door and he didn’t act like he wanted to kiss me.  So that pretty much confirmed the sinking feeling.  Maybe he did have that Country Boy fear of public affection, but I’m tired of analyzing everything.  I’m tired of the fresh beginnings but the usual endings.

So I’m going to take a break from dating and learn how to function without male attention for a while.