In the beginning, some guys are perfect. I know it has to end sometime. It might be tomorrow or a month from now. Until then, I’ll enjoy it while I can.
Spencer invited me to hang out with his buddies on Friday night. I declined, but suggested we hang out on Sunday so he wouldn’t accuse me of playing hard to get again. I’ve had some good dates, but I think this one is as close to perfect as you can get.
He invited me over to his condo which has an incredible view of the Atlanta skyline. He whipped up some homemade guacamole and showed off his culinary skills. We paused for a minute to watch the sunset. We then headed down to the courtyard to grill out pork tenderloin. He somehow snuck some candles in while we were eating dinner. Spencer has a major Type A personality and this is the first time I have found it adorable. After dinner we brought out the binoculars so we could participate in some “Peeping Tom” activities since there are two hotels next to his condo. Alas, it was not meant to be that night. He is one of those guys as Carrie said in “Sex and the City”, “I don’t remember exactly what he looks like, all I remember is how he made me feel.”
I just got an e-mail from Spencer about an hour ago. I had a little sigh of relief. It had barely been 48 hours and I couldn’t understand why I hadn’t heard from him or why he wasn’t thinking about me at that moment. So when did I go from “just having a good time” to being completely psycho? When will I learn that I can’t control my feelings and I need to appreciate the fact that things are perfect right now? Will I ever learn?
I think it’s one of those things about just not having any expectations. You are not psycho. You are just hoping that at some point, someone you like will just manage to reciprocate. I look back and my relationships and the ones where I didn’t expect anything and actually thought I’d never hear from them again…..and they made the effort and I was just happy and surprised and things just went on.
I, too, like you, need to learn not to control. It’s hard. But, I have to believe once we let go…things will just be.
Look forward to hearing what’s next with Spencer!!!!!