Date & Dish

I don’t really feel like writing every detail of the dates with “Patrick” (since we met on St. Patty’s Day).  I liked him, conversation flowed fine.  He had a good job.  He was obviously very smart. He’s funny. He came up with some really creative dates, which I appreciated.  He’s over six feet tall (guys under 5′9 LOVE me).  There was nothing wrong with him.  Yet I couldn’t bring myself to call him back for a third date.  This isn’t the first time it’s happened this year.  It just makes me really sad.  I feel bad for him and for me.

I know I don’t have to like everyone. When I have chemistry on the first date and annoyed on the second, that’s when I get worried.  I want to take a break from dating so I can figure out what is wrong with me.  But I’m not sure if taking a break will provide any insight on why I haven’t liked the last 6 guys I’ve gone out with.  I like them.  Interested in a relationship?  No.  I could suggest being friends, but I simply don’t have the energy.  I know what I want.  I know when he comes along he is not going to fit the “picture” I have of him right now.  Hopefully this doesn’t mean since I clicked with one guy already this year, it should be another year until I click with someone else.  ***Sigh*** I just feel like everyone meets, falls in love and gets married like it’s so easy.  It’s not easy for me.  That is why I’m so frustrated.  Lately it’s been really hard for me to be happy for anyone who announces an engagement or a pregnancy.  I don’t want to be one of those bitter people.