Date & Dish

I went into this thing with German guy with the attitude that I would just “go with the flow.” I didn’t want to get all caught up in expectations or “what ifs”…I wanted to just see where things would go and enjoy myself.

So now that I’ve gone with the flow, I’m totally, undeniably smitten. Like, the kind of smitten that makes me smile when I just think about him.

After last Tuesday’s date that left me kinda weirded out, I got to see him Friday night at the apartment he shares with a roommate for a little gathering. I took some friends, and we had a really nice time. We met lots of interesting people, and I enjoyed seeing German guy with his friends and playing host. Saturday night, he met me and my friends at a club and ended up chauffeuring us around after a few too many drinks. When he dropped us off at our car, my friends proceeded to head into the parking deck while we said goodbye in his car. Of course, saying goodbye consisted of lots of kissing. I saw him again last night, when I went to his place to watch a movie with him and his roommate. And we’re getting together tonight.

Not only am I not really thinking about spending time with other guys right now, but I can’t get enough of German guy and wish we could just hang out all the time. That’s a good sign, right?

So we’ll see what happens. Going with the flow seems to have served me well so far, so I think I will keep it up.

Meanwhile, I got an e-mail from HH. Remember him? He apologized for being absent for so long. Apparently he hasn’t had access to the Internet for a few weeks because of something going screwy with his computer. He told me he owed me drinks and dessert. If he wants to hang out as friends (which I think is totally possible considering the lack of kiss attempts the five or so times we went out)…if he wants to be friends, I am open to that. But I guess my romantic energy is kinda tied up with German guy right now. So I’m not sure how to respond, because I don’t want to make assumptions either way but it’s not like I can come right out and say, “Are you more interested in dating me or hanging out as friends? Because if you want to be friends that’s cool, but if you want to date me, sorry…I’m seeing someone else.”

I wish we could be that honest with people. But it just doesn’t work that way, does it?

Sigh.

I’m already looking forward to tonight…